Let in the air. It's hot and smelly today. Damp garbage smells. Reminds me of my days working in Central Square.... man that place got ripe in the summer. And now, that same smell, right outside my own kitchen window in Rockland. Magic! The sensory memories with smells always hit me the hardest.
Windows. Tabs. Multiple screens. For all the things I am going to do, plan on doing, should be doing, and will never do. Recipes to make, online shops to update (a thing I really to do with no income really coming in on my end anymore and starting to feel increasingly worried about this....) shopping carts on various websites with items lingering in them that I have no intention of ever buying, bills to pay, school to think about. I know I am not alone in any of this. I know I am not special or unique with any of these thoughts or feelings. We're all going through the shit right now. Well. The ones smart enough to be paying attention. I suppose you could completely ignorant and happy. I couldn't be.
The weight of the atmosphere is getting to me. All the open windows are getting to me. Maybe I will start closing them. Maybe if I dump the thoughts here, I can carry on in my day to day life with little more ease.
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